I’ve struggled a lot with worry and stress over the past few months. But I’ve also been taking these feelings to God. And I’ve noticed a change.
God promises to take care of us. He tells us not to worry. And He promises to provide what we need when we need it.
So I’ve chosen to believe what He says. I’ve chosen to reject my anxious feelings. And I’ve chosen to trust in my Heavenly Father.
Like all important changes, it began in a moment and has developed over time. But I’ve come a long way from just a few months ago.
And in that time God has provided:
- A fianceé visa for Ashley despite a government shutdown
- An apartment upgrade without a rent increase
- "Permission to work" for Ashley faster than we expected
- A promotion and a raise for me at the moment it was needed
- A minimal rent change after we were mistakenly told to expect a huge increase
- A Colorado driver’s license for Ashley despite a bureaucratic error
- A bigger tax return than we expected
- A Social Security Number for Ashley despite more bureaucratic error
- A decreased monthly payment for car insurance when we expected an increase
- A new phone for Ashley for half the monthly cost we were paying
- A bigger fridge to replace our broken one at no cost to us
- And a means of paying off a credit card debt
In all of these cases, we started out in a difficult situation and couldn’t see how it would work out. Yet God provided, and we are fine.
God always provides what we need when we need it.
My growing trust in Him was especially evident through a recent event. Ashley and I aren’t financially able to have kids right now, so we’re being as responsible as we can. But we had reason to suspect she might be pregnant last week.
I’ve worried about the possibility of an unplanned pregnancy before. But in this moment, I was surprisingly calm about it. We prayed, asked God to take care of us and went to the pharmacy for a pregnancy test. To our relief, the result was negative.
But I was doubly relieved, because I hadn’t stressed and fretted over it. Instead, I chose to believe that God would give us children in His own timing and that He would provide for our needs when He did.
I felt peace despite the circumstances, because I trusted Him. And that’s something I want to celebrate and grow in.
This is just another memorial stone.
God always takes care of us.